Reorganizing (my) desk drawer

Artist statement:

What is the left, right, above or below? Where is the pristine final project that we usually look for? That ultimate glossy result which was birthed from the wall of crisis, the muse of inspiration and hard work.

This was just supposed to be a draft to show colleagues and professors, nothing to take as definitive, but in evolution. The written notes were reminders to later change structure, thoughts or drawings, to in the end have that perfect visualization of my thoughts that people seem to want. This is the result of the feeling of inadequacy and uneasiness that I felt since the moment that I saw the acceptance letter for this university. I’m waiting for someone to tap me on the shoulder to say that there has been a horrible mistake.

This work is chaotic, messy, and hard to hide behind. Everything that I put on paper, everything that I did not want to admit or think of it not fair to ponder on, I overlined. The proof is there, I cannot escape it. The whole work is about the process and the time that I gave myself to acknowledge and address what was needed. Once I stopped feeling inadequate, something switched.

Undeniably, you always hope to reach an audience. As for me, I just wanted to let the people who care about me know that I have grown less lonesome.

Red and blue pens on paper, 100 x 70 cm